It has been a while that I've not been able to ignore what is happening around me no matter how hard I've tried. Of course leaving the country seeking a better life is not a solution, however that is what I've chosen.

Trying to dress as they wish, to behave as they wish, just to avoid shivering while I'm walking down the street to get a taxi to university and back home but Mama is still afraid that I might get arrested just for no reason and maybe the thing that frightens her more is wondering what my reaction will be.

Today when I was trying to sleep in the afternoon, I was distracted by a clamour and I just went to take a look outside as the din began to crescendo, then I noticed that the voices were from the faculty that my balcony opens to, where there were students fighting in a classroom, and in a room just over that class which seemed to be the room of the chief, was some great noises of the windows bursting, as the students were trying to open his room's door by force and he was talking on his cellphone as the door finally opened.

The news hadn't been published anywhere till now that I noticed a link in Balatarin :from BBC . I could hear the students shouting : "Mikosham Mikosham aanke baraadaram kosht" or "Daaneshjoo daaneshjoo, Ettehaad Ettehaad".

And the most terrible scene that I noticed from my rear window, was that when all the students had left to corridors or salons or somewhere that was not in my view, there were 2 or 3 students left in the classes, some who were smoking and a few who were bearded ones who surely opposed the protests, and the scene that I saw was 3 of these bearded guys gathered in a classroom, while the crowd had reached to the highest point of protest in a way that was sending a shiver down my spine by repeating the phrase "I'll kill, the one who killed my brother" , one of these 3 guys began to dance to the melody of their clamour!

Anyway, I've not been able to study or do anything since afternoon, terrible news, one after another, we're passing horrible days in Tehran and no one seems to care or even react.