Well, I finally did the last of my midterm exams, I have just slept for one hour in last 24 hours and I am so damn tired but I don't feel like sleeping at all. All I've been doing in my life during the last 4 months has been either sleeping or studying and doing nothing else.

I've been trying to pretend to myself that everything has been OK, and everything has really been, really?

Sounds foolish, cause I've got lots of homeworks to deliver till next Thursday, and after that I will have to begin preparing for Final exams, that's my life, and I don't exactly know how long, yes for how long I can cope with this situation.

But I am truly happy for the way I saved my life for last three years, resisting the heavy pressure of university and just doing what I wished to do.

The most important point that I've learnt is not to ever wait for a miracle. Miracle does not exist. Miracle is me myself. I should just let "myself" happen.