I am trying to keep myself busy, not to find any time for despair. I am only a few steps from this little goal. I should concentrate and keep on my good work.

Sometimes I am worried. Just the way shiva has said in this post, afraid to fail and not reach this little goal, the other times, I wonder how it'd be like being left alone in a foreign country and then I panic, I wonder what if it drives me crazy and leaves no way to run away...

The biggest problem is that I want both together, Family & living abroad. Since I believe in no geographical border, it doesn't matter for me Iran or elsewhere, I just wanna live in security, in a country whose goverment does not interfere in people's private lives, in a country in which a woman is not stereotyped as a drudge.


I am waiting impatiently.